How do you unlove someone? Remember when they were so important to you? You couldn’t stop thinking about them. No matter how many hours you spent with them, the moment you reached home, you always had the urge to turn back and call them, to share one more story, to plan your next meeting, to let them know how much you cherished those moments. Everything around you seemed touched by a beauty filter. You started believing in magic. Your stomach fluttered with butterflies, and it felt like your shoe soles were fitted with springs. Every romantic song seemed to be about you. And just like that, you found yourself high on life.
The Sting of Heartbreak
Until one day, when a mean child pricked your balloon with a needle. You were shocked. It hurt. You lay down, but your heart ached. You knew about heart attacks, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, but you had never thought of heartbreak as anything more than a literary term. You slept. You slept a lot. When you woke up, you felt normal, relieved, as if you had woken up from a nightmare. But soon, the realization dawned upon you. You didn’t cry yet. Either you hadn’t come to terms with what had happened, or you thought you were being tough. There was a piece of poisoned apple stuck in your throat like Snow White. You needed a push to let it go. Your friends tried to put some sense into you. You victimized yourself. You listened to sad songs. You felt bad for yourself.
The Practical Journey
You cried your heart out. You didn’t deserve this. After some time, you just feel silly. Not you, but a part of you. Before you know it, you have been divided into two—your practical mind has decided to move on, leaving your dreamer heart behind, still borrowing optimism from all the RomComs you have watched.
The practical you goes on trips, gets a makeover, creates a profile on dating apps. The dreamer you follows, hoping to bump into them, like in a fairytale. The practical you goes on, pretending like nothing has happened. After all, you need to win this game.
Dreaming in Scenarios
While the dreamer you keeps creating scenarios in your head— if you are in trouble, like serious trouble, will they come to rescue you? Of course, they would. Your heart screams, and just like that, weeks turn into months and months turn into years.
Forgotten Love
The world forgets your love story. The practical you has recreated a world standing on the debris of the past. A new world your dreamer heart doesn’t fit into. The time you took for granted is the only wealth the dreamer you holds on to.
Finding Comfort in the Familiar
All the space you had is filled with precious gems, but every time you feel lonely, it’s the overused rags that give comfort to your tired and aching soul.
The Art of Unloving
And that’s how you unlove—by hiding your broken pieces beneath your Instagrammable life. By looking them up in incognito mode, by writing notes in secret diaries, by rewinding your life every other night.
Congratulations, You’ve Mastered It
Congratulations! You are a pro at unloving, and all your secrets are safe with your wet pillow now.
The BIOSCOPED Life 