Someone told me- depression is like
the Dementor in Harry Potter Series
It wipes out all your happy memories
It sucks away your vigor for living
But to me, depression was a cruel friend
that took off all those swanky masks
I bought from the world in return of
all the worldly adjectives I earned
It left my soul- naked, alone
on a cold street, in a dark night
I could see no one any more
It was all about me henceforth
What all could I do when I knew
That there was nobody to judge me
That I didn’t have to carry the load
Of unfulfilled dreams and heavy expectations
Of every one around me
I could pick any high bass songs
And dance like there’s no tomorrow
Or I could lift my pen
And scribble down a story
Only my heart knows
Or I could dip my fingers
in the paint tub and rub them
over all the walls in the city
Oh, all the things I could do
Yet my body was too tired
and too scared to leave the bed
So I rested and I waited
Waited till the clouds were exhausted
Rested till my body could rise
Once I watched this movie ‘Tamasha’
In the climax, an old man asked
“Andar Kya Hai?”
And that’s precisely what depression asked
When I looked in the mirror
My reflection stared back at me
And asked- What is it that you want?
And like always, I was perplexed
What should I do?
Should I smash all the mirrors at home?
Or, buy some more, one for every angle of view?
And I chose those mirrors
That’s why I am no more
The nice and fine person you knew
I let go
I forget
I disappoint
I leave
I break away
But, I am okay
For the first time in life,
I am really okay!!
Beautiful. Nicely penned.
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